I had to have some space. I have to have time to heal without someone reading my words. This journey has taken me many places, but it has taken to an abusive relationship of which I have to fight to stay away from. I fell in love and I still wake up in the middle of the night crying for someon who called me fat, who did not care to share fun with me or find me sensual, she was not sensitive to my feelings and when I go back to a board where I called home and found support when I came out she constantly reads. I need my space at I heal. I have so many things going on now. My court battle is just beginning. He is paying no child support. My lawyer is going for no visitation because of racism. I have to give a deposition and account for many things. I am a little scared and have no one. Just needed a safe place to vent. Whit
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Sure, I’m glad you posted! That’s why Uno and I started this blog. You are going through so much! So you’re not livivng with her, or seeing her at all? tell me I don’t know the whole story, but would like to listen and lend a shoulder if you like.
Best! Pippy/Due
PS when you post on here maybe don’t post with the name you’ve been using? that should help, pick an Italian number…say Tre? just in case you ex finds out about this.
Best! Due
We met a year ago. I fell hard and she did also, but she could not leave the past beind and I did not expect her to. She was in a 30 year relationship and lost he partner to cancer. She comes over on the weekends that the boys are gone. I have forgotten how to have fun. She does not want to go out. Only to dinner. I am very romantic. In December we took a trip to New Orleans on the train. Got a sleeper car. You know I think a little wine and romance on they way down. I ordered a two hour massage after we got to the room. She is just not a sexual person. I am very romantic and sensual, but I do have feelings for her. I am afriand to explore and see if those could be found in another beceuse she would give me the shirt off her back, but she does not reach out to be romantically. She does not want me to kiss her or hold her. I feel myself disappearing. That fun and flirty side going away. She constantly tells me it is over then comes back. I want to have fun. I want to be loved, but how do I know the next person will not be fake?
J’taime—–Whit
Not just the romance issues, but I leave out the abuse. Weight has always been a struggle so when I came out to myself I felt free and started leading a healthy lifestyle and have lost 95 pounds. She constantly calls me fat. She hates the way I dress and tries to recreate me. She mocks my Southern accents and sometimes she just has to go home because my children are too much for her. I keep my place clean, but it is never spotless enough for her. I live in fear of what to say or do, but am finally making a break and making new friends, but when I post on another board she becomes jealous.
J’taime- Whit